The overwhelming dimensions of a relationship

So the last two days i got in touch with two very close friends that i have known for a very long time and have somehow grown apart. One got married and the other moved to another country and it was so great. Like eating a chocolate mousse cake ( not that i know what its like). So we were updating each other on life in general and what were the recent happenings in relationships and work.

We ended up exploring a new dimension to relationships. When a person is overwhelming in a relationship its not that the person is in fact overwhelming but how that person is reacting to the relation. I remember the first time i actually liked a guy and who i had incredible chemistry with.. or so i thought, but he would always say that i was too overwhelming and i would think that the relation was too overwhelming - but the fact that we had incredible chemistry did not provide salvation. It was one of the most fast paced experiences of my life and in retrospect, i guess there was no future - he was too stable, i was too intense. He was too cautious, i was too spontaneous. Its funny, but one of the few things we were similar in was probably our vanity : )

But its so weird sometimes, that even though you have the most crazy chemistry with people, it can sometimes overwhelm you to force that person to break up with you. But maybe thats just me. Maybe i have become so focused and driven to make sure i succeed independently and alone that i have to self destruct the potential of a relation.

My friend thinks i am just a liar.

she just read my swine blog and said i was too shallow to fall in love.

talk about a biatch!

i am in love though.

checking out my new sexy collar bones.

yum.

to s...whine or not to?

exciting news.

i dont have the swine flu!

wooohooo!

no seriously. after two days in bed (alone) i mustered enough strength to head back to the office. obviously colleagues thought i was near death if i hadnt come in two days. (though surprisingly no one called to ask how i was. sad buggers were probably waiting for me to die to relax ;)) nah. im sure they love me.

so. initially i was very excited. maybe i had finally caught the love bug! i mean its something i have been dying to experience right? almost nearing 3 decades "(okay less a couple of yrs) but sad i havent experienced it yet , the thought got me so excited! the only high from the episode was the nebulizer experience. can we have nebuli9ser booths anyone? soothing and pretty damn fantastic.

So my only goal was to get to play golf this weekend which my doc seems to think is possible.

and the only thing i was worried about was explaining at work that i had the swine flu. kinda embarrassing dontcha say?

well. i dont.
it made me loose a few more pounds.
not a good thing either at this point.

Thought of the day

"Home is just a false illusion of security...

Home doesn't exist."


what do u think?

quote of the day

"A high profile, pleasing conversation , aesthetic appeal, fabulous body, charming smile, complex disarming nature, ability to keep you on your toes, confidence that you have the sexiest person beside you, great taste in clothes, a go getter, ambitious, someone to stand by your side when things get tough, push you to the highest measures of success you never knew existed, turn u on and on, excite you, exhilaration, high ....

if u just want to feel good then just apply some oil of ulay honey x"

Is Skank the new Bitch this decade?

what do you think?